why shud i compare?

totally duno wat am i comparing...
there's no one perfect....so do I
im so sorry....

i totally feel regret wen im sending dat mes to u....
i knew tat im hurting u...
bt why...
wat shud i do nw....

** FRIENDS **

FRIENDS...

for me....friends are the best sharing partner ....

they really stand lotz space in my life....

other than MY FAMILY....

especially those who will be there for me when I need them....

I didn't wish lotz....

Zhan just need understanding friends....

Zhan just need advise from my friends....

(freely tel me the worst part of mine...I'll try to accept)

Zhan just need those friends who will share problems together....

that's all I need....

and Zhan dy found them...^^

Just like today....

they dy knew my result released...

they seems like more worry than I do...

for the whole days...

they really let me feel their concerned...

THANK YOU!!!!

APPRECIATE LOTZ.....

Just wana tel u plp....

No worry ya...

Zhan wil b more tougher d leh....

...2nd OCTOBER 2008...

by ZHAN & MOU {1pm to 7pm}

lolx...

dun judge these 2 cheese cakes frm wat u guys c ok....

actually ZHAN & MOU dy put lotz of effort inside...bt den duno y...

stil gt d 'CHOCOLATE' topping....hehe

jz bit bit darky top ny....^0^

bt it stil taste good ya...

TRUST ME!!!!!....

once u eat den u wil ask for more....

hahahahaha~~~~~

THE FULLEST / BUSY 'EST' DAY~~~^0^

d bored'est' holiday for me....

heyhey...jz finish my final leh...pheeeewwwww...

seems like getting sufferred for quite long time dy leh....

BT actuali not...jz almost 2 weeks oni la...^^

hmmm...duno y...dis time although final end jor...

bt stil gt bit bit nervous bout d result....

nervous tat I might nt able to continue d next sem....

hehe....

summore d holiday mood seems like gt bit different....

not tat FUN anymore jor lu...

in my "DIPLOMA" life...

most of my classmates will plan to go for a trip b4 d study week reached....

after a week frm d final den v wil gt prepared dy...

as well as my housemates oso....they oso wil plan to go sumwhere after final...

(although v jz having our holiday at d nearest place) bt iT's MOre tHaN eNuff!!!!

haizzzzzzz.....

in my "DEGREE" life pulak....

gt plp suggest...bt no one work for it....

den til d holiday....apa pun tak ada:(....all back home town....

wen d new sem almost gt started then they ny back...

SIENZZZZ leh.....

suanla...

i think dis sem shud b jz stay at home n 'boil' movie jor...

cham......^^

zhAn's LifE......

i'm back...
well...zhan seems like long time din been here dy hoh...^^....
hmmm....days get bz le lu.....nt like last time...
although zhan was having my dip.....bt den i stil gt time to
have fun wif my dearest hsemates....++ classmates
go eat dimsum in the early mornin.....
go yamcha wif them....
go shopping wif my dear MIMI n MOU (almost av sat til late late d)....
go sing k
go watch mv......
having bed talk wif 2 'koko'n mimi
makin those weird weird sound (crow sound)...lolx...
n lotzzzzz more......
haiz....bt nw....in UNi pulak....
avthing different jor....
avday zhan go clas on time.....after clas lo....back on time....
cz mama say so......^^(boh bian)
bt sumtime s i did go find MIMI oso to tel her my T.T story....
n wen zhan reali need plp to talk to....
due to dis leh...
zhan reali din gt mess round wif them(classmates)
go mv'ing' wif them
except break time looooo....
hmmm.....summmore....
av week....gota bz wif those stupid assignment...test....assignment.... test....
reali gona get crazy wif it dy......
nw ny realized....zhan nt reali suitable wif UNI life ....
bt wat to do....
dis d way zhan choose ....
so zhan hafta work hard....harder...n hardest......for my FUTURE......(i hope so)....
hmmmm.....to be continue le la....gota do revision jor....
bye~~~~bye~~~~

GAMBATEH ZHAN....GAMBATEH......OTHERS CAN MAKE IT.....SO CAN U....

speechless..........

am i took it too serious?

am i d one who owez used to think lotz......

til I created those problem for myself?

am i too troublesome?

so soli...

i noe u've been told me d reason...

i oso knew it...

n i understand....

cz b4 tat u did tel me bout dis...

i nvr wish u to let d whole world knew it too....

bt did u ever think think tat's d best way to tel me?....

jz recal back...n imagine tat u were me...

haiz...

u make me reali disappointed tat time

u make me feel tat I shudn't b ther at tat time....

u wil nvr nvr knew hw was u urselves react tat at time....

haiz...

wat can i say?

u think think....

if u stil appreciate it...

(T-T)....

for almost 4 mths....

dis was d 1st time.... he nvr cal me or sms me even once....

frm mornin to evening.....

wen i gave him a called he nvr ans...

i sms him...he nvr rep...

he nvr been like tat b4...

reali make me wory....n feel uncomfortable...

i've been called him after my class ard 3sth...bt he din ans...
den i decided wen back n take a short nap....

ard 5sth...suddenli zhan woke up....
i dream sth...
den i gave him a called again...
he nvr ans oso.....
so I send him a mes....

i kept on cal n sms him ard 7
bt i cant reached him even once...
he nvr ans....
it seems like make me more worry.....

it make me recall back d past
it's seems like making me gt phobea....
if sumone...din ans my cal for lotz time

i reali hate it.....
i hate dis feeling lotzzzz...
duno y.....

ard 8sth....
at last... he called me....
wen i saw...
he was d one who called me...
my tears drop ....

he asked me y?
haiz....
hw to tel...
i reali duno.....
no one gonna noe...hw hurt it was....
cz they nvr went through it...

he told me tat he was sleepin jz nw....
at tat time...
i reali wish to say out....
wish to hate him...
bt i din.....
mayb im nt dare to quarrel
dun like to quarrel....

so zhan jz kept on cry....
tats wat i noe....
bt at last he seems like din feel anything....
my worry....
my sadness...

3 days left..T.T

scared...
tats my feeling....
jz gt 3 days left.....

i'll try my best.....
hope dis time gt settle....

''g0d bL3ss m3^^''

jia you o...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*...L0V3...*

l0v3 hAs iTs ups & d0wNs,

Its twists & tUrNs.

LoVe leaVeS U pAiN,

t3acHes U uNtiL U LeArN & 3v3n iF lOv3 taKes So LonG,

it aLwayz tAkeS U t0 wH3r3 U bEloNg.

l0v3 Is nOt abOut fiNdINg d RIGHT persOn....

bUt cR3AtiNg thE RIGHT r3LAtioNshIP....

It's nT aBouT hw mUch L0Ve U hAvE iN d BegiNNIng

But hOw much Lov3 U buILD tiLL d End....

cz lOv3 iS aLL th3rE is...

iT's BETTeR tO Los3 Ur prid3 wiTh sUm0NE U love...

rAth3r thAN L0sE tHat sUmon3 wItH uR useL3ss pRidE.

BeINg siNgLe iS cOOL.

n0 woRRyinG aB0Ut Anyon3,

nO oBLigAtioNs & b3sT oF aLL,

no hEArTach3s.

bUt U knOw wHAt?

If U wILL n3v3R gEt ur heArt bRoKen....

U wiLL n3v3r l3arN tO LOVE.....

wh3n U love sumB0Dy,

b3 r3Ady tO tAke d iNt3nsIty oF 3m0tIons.

Be jeaLous, AnXi0Us.

l0v3 wITH alL Ur mIghT.

tAk3 d PaIn & evEryThiNg tHat coMes with iT.

Jz mAke suRE thAt d PERSON iS worTh iT.......^^

-AuThOr UnKnowN-

cacat day!!!!!!!!!!!

aduhhhhhhhh......
sienzzzzzzzz.....
start frm 9am i sit til nw..................
do wat?
jz out payment ny leh............
den nth i can do............
being cacat jor........
jz wait until 6pm den 55 rush home....^^

stil gt 1 week plus plus to go leh.....
hw to tahan like tat d life wo......
reali gt pek cek jor....

HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HELP ME..........

23/03/08, sunday

feeling better le la....

things wil back to normal.....

jz let it be ba....

reali cant do anythin..........

cant scold....even jz an advise oso a bit difficult....

mmm.....make it simple...

IM NT DARE....

jz gv......GV as much as i can....

den tel myself.....

suan ba........

dis wil b d last d........

n dis d oni way tat i can stop my anger

haiz.........

bt in fact...........

it comes continuously d.........:(

suan.....

nyway...thx.....thx dear(MIMI)

thx for spending time with zhan...........

tats wat true fren owez do.......

luv ya....

22/03/08, saturday............

today.....i ny successfully view sumone d blog.....
haiz.....cant imagine tat hard leh....huh.....

n til today...i ny gt knew tat sumone gt tat lotz of problem...
tat i DUNO.....
sad....:(

mmmmmm
day by day...time passes.... v seldom chat lotzzzz.....(like last time)
seldom talk bout our 'headache' story....
seldom hv 'bed talk'
summore v might not noe...
wat problems tat v went through nw....
if v din tel voluntarily......
no one noes....
ITS ONI WEN V BEING TOLD BY SUMONE..........

haiz......
jz wish to drop sth here.....
jz wish ya wil read it....
n jz wish ya noe......

love wil nvr nvr disappear......
n im sure avone wil wen through dis SWEETEST MOMENTS d...
sumone din wen through b4 ......it doesnt means tat u r nt good enuff....
jz d fate haven reach ny..........(hope ya agree)
trust me....(if u din....I WON FORCE)

mmmm....wen ya reali wen through dis moment jor.....
jz remembered.....
appreciate it.....^^
appreciate d moments tat being tackle n tackling plp....
appreciate d moments tat being admire n admiring plp...
although u might nt noe wat d future wil b .........
noe y?
cz o........dis wil b d SWEETEST MEMORIES in avone life.....
tat u won gt avtime....
bt o....
d sad 'est' time wil b there too........
wen d time reached........

nyway....
dun think so much leh........
love owez ard U d la....
love frm ur frenz n fam oso love wat....^^
jz d feeling nt d same ny...bt gota appreciate la....

****lol......like veli PRO.....******

exam.....exam....

stress stress stress....

exam gonna reach soon le....:(

hate it.....

i oledi try to start doin my revision leh...

bt a bit hard....cz i dun even can reach d 2nd page of the notes...

den i fall asleep le...

ARGHHHHHHHH.........SUFFER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wat to do....fail jor is like tat....

haiz.....haiz...haiz.....

resit 2times jor...

stil FAIL....

ZHAN a........ZHAN.........

jz hope i can pass.....

gambade gambade gambade.....

^^ Valentine day (^^,)

mmm....quite long time din update my story jor ^^

nth new.....lol

bt jz wish to drop sth here.....

mmm....duno y?...

gt a bit sad sad d....=(

dis year d VALENTINE DAY.....

no different frm d last year.....

bt is ok ya.....

at least i gt them...(MY SUPER DUPER BELUVED 2NDARY SKOLMATES)

luv them lotzzzzzzzzzzzzzz........

ccc.......tats wat fren meant to be......

FREN.....wil b d closest to ya....other than FAMILY...for sure!!!

wen ya.....feel sad....u wil think of FRENZZZZZZ....

wen ya feel sienz......u wil think of ur FRENZZZZZZZZZZ

BT....BT.....

wen ya need $$......

plz plz......try to avoid to think of FRENZZZZ..... lol

hahahaha....kk....gtg lo.....

c ya.......

i'm nt dun wana study!!!!!!!

reali feel 'fan'........

avone keep on askin me d same question when we met......

ZHAN....NOW U WORKIN A?

~U DUN WANA STUDY JOR MEH?

ya.....i noe.....they jz wana concern me ny.....i knew it....

bt sumtimes reali feel like wana avoid those ques.....dun wana ans......

bt i din...... i did ans.....

~MMM....DUNO O.....CC LO......

~I THINK I WIL RETURN BACK TO STUDY D......

~C HW LO......

c sienzz nt?

owez d same ques n same ans......

actually

i reali hope to back study....reali hope....

i knew tat my qualification is nt tat enuff ya.....

bt wat to do....

i have to think many things leh.....

future future future.........

sumtimes reali hope tat i was born in d rich family

suan.....^^

im jz hoping ny ya.......

im sure tat u wil know wat will I feel wen ur mum telling u tat.....

mum reali hope ya to help her to ease burden

ccc.........

tel me wat wil u do?

where shud i go ya......

keep on workin?

nvm......decide wat course wana take den oni c hw?

suan ba........

i knew tat dis problem wil be solved soon d la......

zhan......gambade ya...........^^

worst day for me~~~24/01/08

mmmm~~~

feeling weird weird d....

there's a kind of feeling came so sudden ytd....

make me feel uncomfortable....

keep on blur'ing' .......dreaming wen im working......

wen playing badminton....sprained my hand...damn pain....

wen I reach home PK.....

c I reali duno wat im doing ytd n wat reali happened......

zhan~~~~~zhan~~~~~~~zhan~~~~~~~~

~~BORING LIFE!!!!!!!!~~

mmmm.....im here again.......
sienzzzzzzz.....
damn sienzzzzzzz
n reali veli sienzzzzzz


i reali fed up wif my life jor......
its seems like owez repeating d same things
av minutes...av hours n avday.....
haiz......
reali dun hope it wil keep it on like dis ya.....


sumtimes reali hope to back to d skol time.....
although i reali reali scare to tek exam....
bt i like n more prefer spend most of my time hanging out wif frenzzzzzz...
i miz d time lotz.......
owez yamcha......goin genting without reason.....
owez heard them making jokes + bully by them......
having bed talk 2gthr av nite
miz it.....miz it lotzzzzzzzzz

bt did u realized one thing

al d happiest times wont stay longer d.......

agree?
sad case...:(

wat to do ya?

jz told myself tat is enuff jor.....

can expect too much oooooo
at least my life painted wif sum colours before dis.....^^
is enuff for me.......
n im gonna remember it!!!^^

thx frenzzz......

Nobody's perfect !!!

~duno y.....
~lastly I failed to ctrl myself...
~d tears comin so sudden....
~bt nw im ok jor^^

~i've been thinking lotzzzz last nite....
~i almost used most of my nap time to think bout my problem......
~i nvr nvr been like dis b4....
~reali reali stress.....
~and it's making me so intolerable!!!!!!!

~y?
~i keep on askin myself y shud i blame sumone?
~there's NOBODY PERFECT in dis world....
~isn't it?

~everybody make mistakes
~everybody has those days
~even ME......oso wil make mistake.....

~i owez think lotzzzzzzz.....
~til sumtimes im in a jam....
~den i told myself that i gotta make a plan.....
~plan to achieve d brightest future for my family...as well as myself....

~although i knew that its quite hard for me to make it
~n might making me gt crazy.....
~but tat's the only way for me to know for sure....

~once.....if one day....
~im nt doin well.....
~nvm......
~dun give up......jz keep it on.....
~i hafta b toughen.....bcz im d eldest....
~i gotta/have to work it till I gt it right.....

~like wat my frenzzz n my mum owez told me....

" U LIVE......U FAIL.....& THEN ONI U WIL LEARN IT!!!!!!"

~even sumtimes i did try to work a scheme for myself....
~bt it doesn't turn out no matter hw.......
~i gt stuck......

~luckily there's owez a person who stay beside me......
~SHE owez act as d good listener for me......
~SHE reali reali d best frenzzzzzz for me......

~bt actually I hope to apologize to her sumtimes......
~sumtimes i reali treat her badly......
~til her nt dare to talk wif me......^^

~so soli.....
~soli my dear.....
~im a bad temper gal last time.....
~n nw shud b better jor.....^0^

* thx...thx my dear MIMI..... i'll owez remembered & appreciate ya!!*

~sumtimes i veli stubborn.....
~dun even share my things at all.....
~duno y?

~bt is ok for me ya.....
~i have to b toughen al d time...
~althuough i reali HATE it lotzzzzzzz
~owez pretending........bt i HAVE to.....
~i dun hope tat those plp ard me.....getting suffer too....

~n nw.......
~i keep on told myself.....

zhan..........

no problem..............

avthing can be solved soon ya.....

COS NOBODY PERFECT !!!!!!!!

*....tat's m3....*

im nt a perfect gal enuff...
owez hope to b d youngest n hate to b d eldest...
sumtimes quite stubborn....
luv n gt cry easily...no matter wat^^
owez hopin back to d youngest time....especially 2ndary skol time ya^^
like to gt concern frm avone.....
n lastly......

~after u have read my blogs...den u wil noe my character d lo..^^
~simple n nth special bout me...